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Thursday, May 31, 2012

THIS IS WHAT I KNOW…

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THIS IS WHAT I KNOW…

Life is hard; teenagers don’t want to be friends with their mothers; people hurt the people they love without reason, animals love you unconditionally; the IRS is more like the mafia than people realize; finding work that you love that pays well is next to impossible; with faith you are never alone; you should never use the word, “should;” some people only want to use you; control is a four letter word; jealousy is ugly; you can’t make someone like or love you; people grow apart; art is in your soul; you can’t forgive anyone unless you forgive yourself first, domesticity is complacent; people need people whether they know it or not; children are meant to grow apart from their parents; it’s possible to know that you’re insane; poetry flows from within me; I wear my heart on my sleeve; I’m not considered to be a happy person; I love to decorate places and things; tears can set you free; sadness deepens with each lifetime; positivity is the best healer; being individual is a true gift; chamomile tea calms my unforgiving nerves; an easy breeze is a caress from nature; you are never as bad as you think you are; some people like to carry emotional baggage; sex is not love; love is not sex; passion is fleeting; friendship is love; Phoenix is fucking hot in the summer; I will travel to Europe; I will come home; a person will want to spend their life with me though they know I’m not like others; a mirror reflects much more than a physical image; beauty is overrated; I’m a bit superficial; I wish a lot; to keep moving is to stay young; you can’t escape your past but you can leave it there; too many cooks spoil the broth; selfish isn’t necessarily a bad thing or a good thing; children absorb so much of who we are; I love my cat; my son thinks I don’t know who he is when in reality I know him better than he knows himself; guilt is a maggot; we all want to leave behind a legacy; some people are pure of heart; men and women share few differences; eccentricity is a true gift; it is human nature to judge; we punish ourselves far better than anyone else can; the ocean is the most beautiful thing on the planet; your parents should be worthy of love; I have my mother’s voice; I love to sing; I hate confrontation; there is a little bit of evil in everyone; I have a restless soul; actors want to experience what it’s like to be everybody else; people cannot possess people – not really; I love my cat; the rift between my son and I may never be repaired; it’s okay to not understand; I need to learn to be calm; sometimes I can’t clean up my messes; I think too deeply; people don’t love people just because they’re supposed to as is the case with family; I love to write; I feel bloated; I wish I felt needed; to be understood is the deepest need of mankind.

Thursday, May 10, 2012

WHY DON’T PEOPLE CARE ANYMORE?

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I’ve just had the shittiest birthday of my entire life.  When my mother was alive I so looked forward to each and every birthday as I knew each year she would plan and shop and make sure that everyone in the family had a dinner out (or in as requested), presents and a family celebration.  Since her departure, birthdays now represent this dreary time where there once was joy and no one wants to celebrate anymore. 

This year, May 1st to be exact, was my 50th birthday.  Now I’m thinking, “Oh this will be great because my friends and family know it is a big deal turning 50 and I am sure someone will either plan a party or take me out for dinner and drinks.”  You know what I got?  Absolutely nothing.  My former boss promised me a night out on my actual birthday but then was sick that day and couldn’t take me out.  We rescheduled for this past Tuesday, but when it rolled around, no phone call or text from her at all.  Just blown off!  I had scheduled myself a great spa day for last Saturday and was going to treat myself to salvage something for my birthday and then, at the last minute, I got a phone call from the spa saying the girl that was going to do it was not able to come in that day and had to cancel.  Funny how they charge me a cancellation fee if I don’t show up, but it’s fine for them to cancel at the last minute.  I should bill them for taking away the ONE thing I looked forward to and thought was foolproof as a birthday present to myself.  (On a more positive note, my son baked me an angel food cake from scratch and had two presents for me the night my dinner was called off.)  Okay, I’ve digressed a bit here.  Oops.
Let’s talk about birthday cards, oh wait, let’s not – I did get three of those in the actual mail.  1 from my son, 1 from my Aunt and 1 from one of my brothers in California.  I used to get at least 8 or 9.  I guess it’s just too hard to mail things these days.  Everyone would rather text (I didn’t get any of those) or email (I didn’t get any of those either) or send a blast on Facebook (but I did some of those). 


What is up with people these days?  Don’t they know the U.S. Postal Service is still running?  It isn't that expensive to mail a card, especially since I ALWAYS mail cards to family and friends on their birthdays.  It is as though everyone would rather do things electronically as if that should suffice, and some people are “too busy” to send a card.  Really?  Too busy?  Who isn't too busy these days, but it isn’t hard to find the time to make a five minute phone call or stick a card in your mailbox.

We have turned into a self-absorbed, lazy, electronic-minded society with cell phones glued to our ears and I have to say, I just don’t see that these “advances in modern technology” have done any good for mankind.  In fact, they have only succeeded in creating a self-inflicted societal quarantine which has left behind an enormous amount of lonely individuals.