Definition of Loneliness:
loneliness
lone·ly
[lohn-lee]
adjective, lone·li·er, lone·li·est.
1.
affected with, characterized by, or causing a
depressing
feeling of being alone; lonesome.
depressing
feeling of being alone; lonesome.
2.
destitute of sympathetic or friendly
companionship,
intercourse,support, etc.: a lonely exile.
companionship,
intercourse,support, etc.: a lonely exile.
4.
remote from places of human habitation;
desolate;
unfrequented;bleak: a lonely road.
desolate;
unfrequented;bleak: a lonely road.
5.
standing apart; isolated: a lonely tower.
I think the definition that stands out most for me is in number 3,
companionless.
I guess because I live alone and have no companion I would be
considered
lonely, and around this time of year, I would tend to agree.
Holidays really
try to get the message drilled into one's head that the holidays are
a time to
reunite with loved ones and be with the ones you love. Well guess
what Hallmark...some of us can't be with the one's we love because
we have made
such a fucking mess of our lives that we love people we cannot have
or we
keep our hearts closed off because of stupid things from the past.
My best
friend told me the other day that he thinks I'm alone because my past
has
damaged me and I will never let anyone in again (although he worded
it
differently). This got me to thinking really hard, not that I had much
else to do,
us lonely people seldom do, and I realized he is wrong. Totally and
completely
wrong! I am finally able to let someone in and would totally commit
to this
person with all of my heart and soul and make it last til death us do
part.
The problem you ask? It is with a person who doesn't know I feel this
way.
I could tell them, but I think if I did that right now it would ruin what
we have
as friends and I don't want to risk that. I hate that you can't help who
you fall
in love with. It would be so much easier if we could.
companionless.
I guess because I live alone and have no companion I would be
considered
lonely, and around this time of year, I would tend to agree.
Holidays really
try to get the message drilled into one's head that the holidays are
a time to
reunite with loved ones and be with the ones you love. Well guess
what Hallmark...some of us can't be with the one's we love because
we have made
such a fucking mess of our lives that we love people we cannot have
or we
keep our hearts closed off because of stupid things from the past.
My best
friend told me the other day that he thinks I'm alone because my past
has
damaged me and I will never let anyone in again (although he worded
it
differently). This got me to thinking really hard, not that I had much
else to do,
us lonely people seldom do, and I realized he is wrong. Totally and
completely
wrong! I am finally able to let someone in and would totally commit
to this
person with all of my heart and soul and make it last til death us do
part.
The problem you ask? It is with a person who doesn't know I feel this
way.
I could tell them, but I think if I did that right now it would ruin what
we have
as friends and I don't want to risk that. I hate that you can't help who
you fall
in love with. It would be so much easier if we could.
Lonely? Sure, but this too shall pass and around every corner in life, there
is new hope. I hate the holidays!
is new hope. I hate the holidays!
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